I'm looking for an opinion... other than my own doctors for the time
being. Here is an overview of my last 6 summers:
97 - sad, slept alot, looking new job.. contributed sadness to job
trouble
98 - sad, slept constantly, non social, a ***** in general -
contributed moods to moving that summer and not knowing anyone
99 - sad, gained 40 pounds May-July, *****y, tried to file for
divorce, blamed depression on my husbands job loss
2000 - sad, gained back weight lost over winter, slept constantly,
sought out counseling for depression no real issues, had moved and
kind of blamed the depresion on that even though life was really
pretty good, work wise and with husband.
2001 - sad, could not get enough sleep, couldn't get out of bed some
days, quit job I had had for 10 years, out of the blue. Doc put me on
effexor, I couldn't stand how it made me feel and stopped after a few
weeks.
2002 - was on vacation entire month of June and fine. Depression hit
big time in July.. slept constantly, nasty to husband and kids,
finally medicated again... effexor, again.... still felt like **** and
quit it.
Each time I am fine by mid September. I'm beginning to feel quilty
that I get depressed around my kids... given that I'm home all summer
with them. I went into teaching a few years ago to have the summers
with them and yet now I'm with them and can't do anything but sleep
and *****. I was searching the internet for a relation****p between
heat and depression. I absolutely HATE to get hot.....I have no
tolerance for heat. I didn't find anything on that but located info
on SAD and this news group.
I am wondering if this sounds like SAD or not? My thinking is that
given that I hate the heat I end up locking myself up in the house all
summer in the A/C and maybe I'm getting that winter light deprevation
thing.
CAn anyone offer any suggestions or relate?
Thanks
Laurel
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