Love your post Chris.
I remember my last 'cough' too. I came from a meeting out into the cold
night air and coughed my way back to the car, at the same time trying to
get
another nicotine fix back into me.
Nowadays I listen to my husband going through the early morning coughing
ritual. Whilst sorry for him - in a way! - it reinforces my commitment
daily.
Life is great. I stopped just in time and my specialist reckons I will
have
sufficient breath to make it without an oxygen tank!
Well done us!
ChrisB
"eightpans" <chrisconro@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
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>I remember when I smoked I would wake up in the morning reach for my
> pack and lighter, had it lit as I went down the stairs then I would
> start coughing. I would just make it to the back door and spit my
> first brown streaked mouthful of phlegm in the drain. I would suck the
> living daylights out of that first cigarette and on to the next. Back
> up to the bathroom and then the real coughing begins, we are talking
> from my bootstraps here, coughing till I wretched, beating my chest
> like king fricking kong. I would wake my kids up with the racket.
> Somewhere in this haze of addiction a voice said "this isn't right"
> Most smokers hear the voice but to carry on smoking you have to batten
> that voice down, I had done so for years.
> I found this place and saw a bit of light, I kept reading, learning
> and started listening two and a half years odd down the line with all
> your help I have turned a corner.
> I wake in the morning now and feel fresh and clean. I brush my teeth
> and head out side into the yard and start breathing in huge lungfuls
> of fresh air. Sometimes I breathe in and think it will never stop.
> It will be a cold day in hell if I were to smoke again. It would be a
> hell of my own making. I chose not to smoke, not smoking is the right
> thing to do. Lets do the right thing.
>
> Chris
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