1: Me and my wife have discovered that we no longer have anything in
common.
2: I can't promise her the sup****t that she wants out of me, due to
not knowing who I am from one day to the next. For example being happy
and optimistic one day and pessimistic another day.
3: I can't take this mental problem of mine, it really gets in the way
of everything. Work, relation****p. Due to being on ant-psychotics and
anti-depressants, I feel like as one person said on here, like I'm
watching a TV and I'm not part of the drama.
4: I can't take the decision as to if I should return to the UK or
stay for the kids. There is benefit to both choices. Maybe in the UK
I'll get the care I need. Where as here nobody understands me or my
condition.
The bottom line is, I CAN'T MAKE A JUSTIFIED DECISION ONE WAY OR
ANOTHER!
Can I be so bold as have some of you in my position, and make that
decision for me?
Ignore the above if you think it's too intense a request. Maybe you
views would be better.
:Sigh: What to do! What to do!
PS I have a friend at work is in the same position, minus the mental
illness. He stays in Durban, yet his family is in Joburg. He asked me
where he should be. I said you have nothing keeping you here go back
to Joburg.
Yet who am I to be giving advice, when I can't even make a decision on
my own. Maybe my decision is a hard one. Who knows? Who cares? ****
IT!
PPS Like Richard Ashcroft said "I'm a million different people from
one day to the next!"
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