YES, TIRED, TIRED, TIRED an tired of all THIS! Please save your time and
energy, it is lost with me.
When I smoke I NEED to give up, when on a quit, all goes well while taking
something to numb my brain, and as soon as I slow down with them, ALL my
****y past and present life come ru****ng to make me so miserable, the pit
of my stomach seems
to be closed by a wrench, I want to cry and don't want to. I can't talk to
anyone about it, no one, and now it's time to save the money that I used
to
spend to see some counsellor or whatever.
I've done so much for others, what I get is ****, in different kind of
degree. At my age there is not hope to change!
Please don't tell me that a cigarette would not help. It has helped many a
times, too many!
maria
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