*****Pity party alert******
Rob's not feeling too awfully good this morning, so he's going to
dribble his self pity all over the news group.
*****Pity party alert******
So I think I'll just ramble a bit. I would rant, but to be honest
with you, since I started taking Chantix thirteen days ago, I just
can't get up enough emotion to get pissed off at anything. I can't
seem to focus on anything at work. All I want to do is take a nap if
I take the prescribed dosage daily. I didn't do this yesterday or
today, BTW. I took one (1mg) tab yesterday during lunch and it was my
first fairly normal day in the past two weeks. The morning was OK,
but by 2:30, I was counting the minutes until I could go home and take
a nap. After I got home (and after a 1-hour nap), I just ran a tub
and sat in it rubbing my feet for about 20 minutes until it was time
to leave to go to handbell practice. I haven't taken one yet today
(pill, not bath) and I still feel like I'm in a mild fog.
If this is what it's going to be like for 12 weeks, then I'm afraid
I'm just not strong enough to tough it out. I quit smoking on
schedule last Wednesday (yay me), and I haven't smoked nor wanted to
smoke a cigarette since. But I do not want to spend the next 70 1/2
days feeling this way. It's almost like the memory of how I feel now
would be enough to keep me from smoking--just to avoid having to take
this stupid drug again.
I called my doctor and talked to his nurse about stopping the
Chantix. He's supposed to call me back when he gets a chance. The
only reason I even called was because my dear wife suggested that
before discontinuing the medication, I should at least get his input.
There's no need for anyone to reply to this message. It's not why I'm
posting it. The reason I'm posting is that I can. I've been urged to
read and post daily, which I've done--at least the reading part. I've
tried to post daily, but I haven't felt very sup****tive lately. This
is a place where I can come and I know that there are at least a few
people who understand the difficulty of quitting smoking. It's a
place where I can come to rant or, in this case, just to ramble.
As Robert Frost so eloquently phrased it, "Home is the place where,
when you have to go there, they have to take you in." Thanks for
being my home, AS3.
Cheers,
Rob
I haven't smoked for six days, 12 hours. I wish I could get excited
about that...or anything else, to be honest.
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