Re: July 29, crap crap crap

On Thu, 5 Jun 2008 09:37:05 -0700 (PDT), saulgoode
<pudboyss@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
> wrote:

>All these years -- three years, I guess -- I blocked it out.
>
>July 29, 2005, that's when it happened, and I blocked it out. I don't
>want to live that day over and over, gaddamint.
>
>But I'm digging out the divorce decree, now, so I can buy another
>house. I'm moving up to a better house in a better neighborhood,
>actually putting "neighbor" into it, because now I just live in a
>"hood."
>
>And all this time I intentionally blocked out that July 29th date. All
>this time, and I'm looking through the divorce decree, trying not to
>cry, looking for the quit-deed, the c/s do***entation, and there it is
>in the ex-wife's looping girly-letters: July 29th, her neatly drawn
>initials next to my illegible scribbles at the bottom.
>
>Crap crap crap.
>
>Ah well. Now I get two days a year -- anniversary, and divorce.
>Marriage and death. I get to celebrate both. How wonderful.
>
>And now I'm bout to cry at work for no gaddamned reason.


*shoulder punch*

Sorry to hear it, man.

OK, it's a three-week-old post, I hope you're feeling better now.

>Great house, though, beautiful, walking distance to the golf course,
>walking distance to the lake, two pools, across the street from the
>park (park is my front yard), top-notch elem. school... Assuming I get
>the house, that is.

Didja get the house?

>I hate being a ****ing drama queen! Just some things cut deep and
>never heal, I suppose.

You got that right... and sometimes we never know what little thing is
going to open up that unhealed wound and make it start hurting and
bleeding all over again. I'm having one of those days today - I guess
that's why I'm reading asd and asm.

BP