i have lost track of time. I don't even want to know how many days
have passed. But every single day hurts without my mumsy.
Somedays, i feel so completely devoid of emotions. I feel i have moved
on in life. I feel the pain has taken a back seat. When i see the
sadness in my dad's eyes i feel only he misses mom and i have no
sorrow. Then i think back, this isn't a competition about who can
grieve more. I feel her absence immensly, and don't know what I
should. I try consoling my dad but i know this is an impossible task.
After a long time, I looked at the family photos and it brought back
the tears in me. But they dried out and I began looking at the
pictures once again wihtout any emotions. If this is life, i sure
don't want to live it.
i don't know how long i'll have to wait here without mumsy.
I love you mumsy
