On May 20, 1:02=A0am, queenbee2 <queenb...@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
> wrote:
> Thank you all for your responses. It is unimaginable isn't it that
> there are so many of us in such pain?
>
> My daughters went to the Homecoming dance 4 days before my youngest
> daughter was killed. The pictures of her in her first formal dress are
> so very precious. I am so glad she got to experience the dance. Though
> far from perfect she was beautiful, kind and loving. She loved young
> children and would have grown up to be a great teacher, social worker,
> or anything else. She would also have been a great mother. I have a
> hard time thinking about all the wonderful experiences she will have
> missed and the joy I would have had in sharing them with her. When we
> had her memorial service the church was full of friends from school
> and her youth group. It was also full of past teachers and many others
> adults who had known her. We even had condolence cards from the
> orthodontist.
>
> Two years ago we would have been spending the evening getting ready
> for her 16th birthday. She would have been so excited. Tomorrow her
> older sister and I will spend the day together working on fini****ng
> the scrapbooks that I have not been able to finish. It will certainly
> be difficult and there will be many tears but that's OK. It will be
> good to look at the photos and talk about her together. We will share
> some birthday cake and make it through the day. Then we will get up on
> Wednesday and begin again to determine what our 'new normal' is
> without her.
>
> I send my thoughts and prayers to all of you who are experiencing
thegrief=
that draws us together on this list. One day at a time we will
> make it through. Debbie
Debbie, I too must respond to your letter. I understand how you feel
completely. My son would of turned 28yrs, just a month after he
passed, (I still can't say the d word), and it's also the day after my
husband and I's anniversary the day after he passed. As you can
imagine, last year it went unnoticed,,,,,,John had just passed that
year, 2007. I'll never forget that faithful day either. I remember
everything,,, up till I knew he was gone for sure. Then it gets
alittle blurry to me, getting thru the arrangements and funeral and
all. It will always be the hardest thing I'll ever have had the
(pleasure) of experiencing. Oh that's just sick, there is and never
will be any pleasure in losing my son, and all you know that too. I
am so lost without him, I don't know how I go on. My husband and I
teeter totter on our relation****p, so I feel so alone in my grief. I
know he's grieving, but he doesn't want to talk about it, and I need
to. I have to talk about good memories or I can't get the bad out of
my head. All I can see is that faithful day I lost John. It was
horrible and always will be burned in my heart. Along with the big
hole that's there now also. Nothing can fill that void, nothing.
Sorry for blowing off some steam,,,,,,,I needed that. Hope I don't
sound callas,,, I feel mad at the world right now for going on with
all these problems I'm having now. And everything stems around my
baby boy. I love and miss him so much. I'll never get over this
one. If anyone knows how,,,,don't hesistate to tell me. luv ya
Debbie,,,,, I feel for ya dear. I know your pain. Tami
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