"queenbee2" <queenbee2@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
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> Dear groupmates,
> The 20th of this month would have been my daughter's 16th birthday.
> She was killed by a hit and run driver on October 10, 2006 when she
> was 14. She and her then 16 year old sister were walking home from
> their church youth group. It was the most horrible day of my life.
> Though it was 1 1/2 years ago I could recite every moment of that day
> as if it had just happened.
>
> Last year we marked her birthday by scattering her ashes in the desert
> amongst the wild flowers. We released balloons with notes and
> remembered stories about her. It was the right thing to do at the time
> and though painful felt good. This year feels different. Both my
> daughters looked forward to their 16th birthdays for many years. It is
> a truly special birthday and we will miss celebrating with her.
>
> I certainly do not feel like celebrating anything, in fact I would
> like to go to sleep and wake up 2 days later having missed the 20th
> all together. My older daughter plans to go to church and present a
> tribute at the youth service. Though she wants me to attend and I
> should go to sup****t her, I just can't do it. I know that I would sit
> and weep and be unable to hear anything that was said.
>
> How is it that time p***** and the pain does not seem to lessen?
> Though I suppose we function it takes a few notes of a certain song or
> the sight of a teenaged girl with long dark hair to begin the flood of
> tears. How in the world do I make it through another birthday? I know
> I will always be a grieving mother and my head tells me that some days
> will be more difficult. My heart doesn't understand and seems
> shattered into a million pieces.
> Debbie
Well Debbie, we have something in common. My neice's birthday is the 20th
also. She would have been 19. Last year her funeral was 2 days before her
birthday,and graduation night was the day before. My sister and my nephew
and I sent up a Happy Birthday Balloon. I don't have a clue what we are
going to do this year. but I am thankful that my sister has a pretty full
day on the 20th. Her son's school has a lunch for all the volunteers at
school, then in the evening he has a basball game. I think she has a dr.
appt too.
Maybe if you keep yourself busy on the 20th it will help. Either way I'll
be
thinking of you
Pam
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