In Liliana's post to Donna she uses the word "energy" several times.
That is what I feel the pain of the loss of a child does to a mother;
when the hurt fades a little bit, there is no energy to take its
place. I cannot tell you the number of times I just can't cope with
such little tasks or decisions because I lack the energy to do so,
even after nearly a year and a half since our daughter died. It should
be getting easier, but it's not.
( I have been going through grief therapy for six months now and I
think I have finally "come up for air" because of it. If there is any
way you can get that kind of help, Donna, I strongly recommend it)
Keeping the memory of our child alive works in a positive way during
these sessions, and the friends I have stayed close to during this
period of mourning feel comfortable talking with me about our
daughter. As long as you verbalize the memory of your child, he/she
will never be forgotten.
Genie
