This year will be a multi-whammy for me.
My Judy passed away 6 months ago on Wednesday.
It's hard to believe it. At times, I am still in denial. And at other
times, I am surprised that a half a year has passed, hopefully the
hardest 6 months.
But tomorrow will be particularly difficult for me.
Of course, the onslaught of Mother's Day commercials has re-awakened
the sadness of losing my mother when she was only 55. But that has
diminished a lot after over 20 years.
What will be difficult for me this year is the loss of my Judy.
She was estranged from her children when I first met her. And when
Mother's Day came along, she was especially sad. So, I thought I would
try to make her "day" a little better by taking her out to eat. And
she enjoyed it. In fact, we continued the tradition even after one of
her children re-established contact with her. There was a stepmother and
rather than make a big deal about how much time she would get to spend
with her child, I just took her out to eat.
We ate together for three Mother's Days. It became our tradition.
But that is over. So now, Mother's Day has again become another of
those anniversary days throughout the year when I am sad.
I know that I have not responded to several posts that I wished I could
have, because I felt there was nothing that I could say. Especially to
those mothers who have lost a child.
Only this, I will say a prayer for all the mothers in this group today.
Perhaps it will lighten your load.
Sincerely,
Ken
(Judy - 11/18/50 - 11/7/07)
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