On Dec 11, 8:25 am, mE-n-my-FAM...@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
(This Is Ab0ut) wrote:
> I have my son's name on a suicide wall. Forgot the name of it. So many
> people lost someone via suicide. Whether it was a family member or
> family member it all hurts for the people left behind. I think back &
> yes my son was depressed. He had no life. He was a baptized Jehovah
> witness for years. He believed so much in that relegion. Didn't go door
> to door bt went to meetings. Walked in the freezing cold. They knew he
> had to walk but didn't care. He finally because of all their bull****
> stop going to those meetings. What happen to him when the homicide
> detectives told him that they're going to talk to the actual murder to
> see what he has to say drove my son to kill himself. He kept going back
> to the police department to talk to them. They didn't care they thought
> it was fun because they knew my family back in the 60's & further down.
> I had one son that always got in trouble but it had nothing to do with
> the one who died. I picture how scared he had to be to feel he had no
> choice but to put that rope around his neck with out any padding. Just a
> skinny clothesline rope. No drugs, no booze & once it was done no one to
> help him out before he blacked out. Thank you for offering me to write
> to you. I just might do that
Please do write to me. We all need to be there for each other. It
hurts forever when we lose our child to suicide, no matter how old
they are. Suicide is a permanent answer to a tem****ary problem. It's
so very sad. The people who are left behind that love them, have a
life sentence to pain. Grief is a journey that never ends. This is
true no matter how they died or who they were. They were loved by us.
This time of year - the holidays - only intensifies it. Now is suppose
to be the time we get to spend more time with our families. When we
see and think even more about "that empty chair". As a parent, our
children are always on our minds and in our hearts. It just seems to
magnify our lose this time of year. It sounds like we lost our sons
about the same time of year in 2005.
I too, read the suicide web site's. I guess I went there for two
reasons, 1. to see if my son had ever been there and to try to
understand more what people in that pain were feeling. 2. To see, if
possible I could help someone, in ways I wasn't able to help my own
son.
Seriously you should think about joining thousands of parents, Moms
and Dads, who lost there children to suicide. POS - Parents of
Suicide. So many stories, but it's good to share and to know that the
pain we are going through, is normal and shared. Here's my hand, I am
here for you.
Josh's Mom
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