Re: dealing with grief/LeeLu/Josh's mom

I have my son's name on a suicide wall. Forgot the name of it. So many
people lost someone via suicide. Whether it was a family member or
family member it all hurts for the people left behind. I think back &
yes my son was depressed. He had no life. He was a baptized Jehovah
witness for years. He believed so much in that relegion. Didn't go door
to door bt went to meetings. Walked in the freezing cold. They knew he
had to walk but didn't care. He finally because of all their bull****
stop going to those meetings. What happen to him when the homicide
detectives told him that they're going to talk to the actual murder to
see what he has to say drove my son to kill himself. He kept going back
to the police department to talk to them. They didn't care they thought
it was fun because they knew my family back in the 60's & further down.
I had one son that always got in trouble but it had nothing to do with
the one who died. I picture how scared he had to be to feel he had no
choice but to put that rope around his neck with out any padding. Just a
skinny clothesline rope. No drugs, no booze & once it was done no one to
help him out before he blacked out. Thank you for offering me to write
to you. I just might do that