On Dec 6, 7:45 am, mE-n-my-FAM...@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
(This Is Ab0ut) wrote:
> I lost my 43 year old son through suicide back in October 2005. He hung
> himself. Reason for this was because he knew this man that killed his
> own wife & son back in the middle 90's. My son use to babysit for this
> man & his wife. One day this man made his wife believe they're going on
> a second honeymoon. Exact same place they went before. At least that's
> what I think he told her. When they got to that motel he told his wife
> he was going to kill their son with a hammer. She freaked out & said no.
> To calm her down he made her believe he won't do it & let her see him
> throw the hammer away. When his wife & son went to sleep he killed them
> both. After that he called the police on him self. He's doing time in
> prison in New Hamp****re. He decided to tell the authorities about this
> old woman he killed before his wife & son that lived in the same
> building he lived in. Oct. 12 at night time homicide detectives from a
> city we lived in before came to our home to talk to my son about this
> guy that killed his wife & son. My son had know knowledge about this
> other woman. My son volunteered to go to their police department the
> next morning which would be Oct.13 2005. The next thing he knows he's
> being questioned about that murder. Now my son had a stuttering problem
> & had very low esteem about himself. He knew he didn't''t do it.
> Everyone whether they liked my son or not knew he couldn't hurt or kill
> anyone. He took a DNA test & also a lie detector test. He volunteered to
> do it He was nervous & according to the police department he failed. He
> kept going back to the police department to try to convince them he was
> innocent. They told him they were going to that prison to talk to this
> man & show him a picture of my son & see what he has to say. My son
> wasn't married & had very few friends & him & this man that killed his
> own wife & son had an argument about something so my son knew he was at
> the mercy of this man. Buy the time Oct 15th came around at night time
> my son had it in his mine that he was going to prison for something he
> didn't do. He was scared. Last time I seen him alive was Saturday 11:40
> p.m Oct 15, 2005. I found a goodbye suicide letter he left behind
> actually more then one. You couldn't read it that good because when he
> wrote it he was shaking. For those last few days before his suicide all
> my son did was cry & throw up. I went to our police department on Sunday
> with that suicide letter & told them what happened. Monday a cop comes
> to my apartment to get info about my son. I also called the city that
> started all this & asked them what was going on about my son. You know
> what they told me? They said "Oh he's cleared" They were going by the
> word of a self admitting convicted killer. I then asked them to put a
> look out thing to find my son. I knew he was outside some place he had
> no where to go. My other sons & myself look every where to find my son.
> Oct 20th, 2005 around noon time the detectives where we live came to my
> apartment to tell me they found my son & that he killed himself they
> also told me later on that it won't be in the paper about his suicide.
> They gave a stupid reason for it. So no one really didn't know what
> happened. Oh I told people I knew what went on. Every day I think of
> what happened & it hurts but nothing can be done about this. I know I
> have to go on I'm not suicidal my self to chicken to even think that
> way. My son who did kill himself? Yes his life sucked & alot of times he
> said he wished he was dead but there's a difference in taking your own
> life because you want to then doing it because you think your life has
> ended any way because of something you not only didn't do but had no
> knowledge of until those homicide detectives came knocking on our door
I am so sorry you lost your son to suicide. I think it is horrible
that the police can use this type of thing and threaten your son with
jail, etc,. I lost my son in Nov 2005 also to suicide. I don't know if
you know about POS. Parents of Suicide. It is a group of all parents
that have lost there children to suicide. I think you might benefit
from being with other parents, who are on this journey as well. How
are you coping now? How are your other children coping? As you
already know, when you lose your child, it changes you forever. I know
I will take this pain to my grave. If you have any interest in this
POS group and have any trouble finding it. Please send me an e-mail
and I will send you the information. Take care.
Josh's Mom
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