Why do people grieve when a loved one commits suicide? That person
finally has found peace and their suffering is over. I am suicidal,
and I have not yet succeeded at suicide. However, I will succeed, and
hopefully soon. I have hated this world and my life since I was a
child. I used to beat myself with a hammer when I was very young.
Since then, I have attempted suicide numerous times, and several times
ended up hospitalized and or arrested for the attempt. That does not
stop me, all it does is add to my pain and suffering, because they
make me out to be some sort of criminal for my want of my own death.
I am not a criminal, nor am I insane. I just hate life and I will
never adjust to this world. Some of us just do not belong in this
world, but people keep reproducing and making new babies no matter
what. Why not let those that WANT to survive have this world, and let
those of us, like myself, who want to die, alone. I am not going to
hurt or kill anyone else, nor do I steal from others or commit other
crimes. I simply want to die to end the pain I feel. Why can't they
just let me die. I would be dead now, if they had not dragged me into
the hospital and hooked me up to all kinds of machines to pump the
drugs out of my body. I was at peace, I was feeling no pain, and I
was ready ot meet my death. I did everything right, except these
people ruined all my plans, and forced me to suffer some more. There
was a note attached to my body when I took the overdose. That note
said to everyone, that I am doing this to end my suffering, and not to
mourn my death because I am at peace. I told certain people that I
loved them, and ended my note by pleading with them in these words "If
you find me before I am dead, please do not try to save me. I want to
die, and if you really love me, let me die".
I was found by a family member that I loved, and they proved that they
really do NOT love me, by going against my will and calling an
ambulance. They read the note, and even admitted it. I have disliked
that person ever since, and I will not even send them a Christmas card
now. I was almost there, and they ruined everything.
I will succeed in my death. Next time no one is going to find me
until I am long out of this world. At last I will find peace !
So, let me ask you. Why are you grieving? Maybe I should be grieving
for you, because it's you that will have to continue living in this
miserable world, possibly for many more years.
I send my sympathy for any of you who continue in this life........
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