had dreams where i was screaming at 'rents, "I hate you! I hate you in
the depths of me, and no matter what you do to make me say nice things
or make me say I didn't mean this later, I am telling you now: I
*hate* you! And it will not change."
Wow.
I guess therapist talking with me about rage really has brought some
alters into really speaking up about this rage.
Talked to steven for a bit about having hard time keeping the room
clean and work stuff - he seemed really interested and all, and we
were planning to meet later this afternoon. Then Sarah inside got
really angry and triggered while we were trying to clean room, and we
called him, and he said, "I don't know what you expect me to do. I
already talked to you today...."
Scr*w him.
I don't need to meet with him today. I don't need to talk to him ever
except for when he calls me.
I *hate* him. He acts all interested in talking and he helps keep the
conversation going, then holds it over my head later that we talked.
How the h*ll am i supposed to know when it pleases him to listen and
when it doesn't? Scr*w him. I hate him.
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