I have been married almost 15 years. Angelic for most of that time. Until
earlier this year, I went to Florida to visit my ill father. I met up with
my childhood friend whom I had not seen in almost 10 years. Her husband
propositioned me to have a 3 some. I was in shock, and said no way. But on
my way home, the thoughts would not get out of my head. So, my friend, her
husband and I made plans in the following months that we would be together
***ually. I flew back and we spent 4 heavenly days together.
Six months later, I was ready to visit again. Only this time it was much
different. She and her husband were not nearly as into it. Maybe the
excitement wasn't the same level. We only had *** 2 out of the 4 days I
was there. I left feeling very dissapointed and hurt. Rejected...even.
Ok, in the mean time, this friend of mine (the same one I had the 3 some
with), introduces me to one of her friends who travels frequently to the
state I live in. He and I have now had 2 encounters overnight in a hotel
room. Again, the first time was awsome....second time was really
good...and now I have not heard from him. It has been 2 days since we were
together and he has not called/ emaile/ instant messaged.
This is crazy...I know it is supposed to be just ***. And I love *** don't
get me wrong...but I want something emotional as well. I want to feel like
I matter to these people. I am a huge pleaser too. I have a very difficult
time having an orgasm...but thats ok...because I just enjoy pleasing the
other person. The guy that I have met with twice, the first time he
climaxed 11 times in one night..the second time it was 8 times. So
obviously, I do a good job. Why can't I get this little bit in return to
just know that I am not being used for ***?
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